You got me

It’s 12:21 am and I think you need to hear this: you are worth it. I know you’re telling yourself otherwise, but you are so worth it. You mean something, Jasmine. You really, truly do. I know Aries season treated your poorly (though that new running routine was a nice addition), but remember: the death card doesn’t mean a door closing. You are change itself. All of the times you’ve turned into ash, you arose. You’re not one to share your feelings with others because you feel like a burden but sometimes, darling, sometimes you need to let it out. Nights on the bathroom floor, soaking bathmats with your tears and picking at kneecaps cannot suffice. That Cancer rising longs to help others but sometimes you need to let go of the maternal instinct, that need to be the one to save. Dammit, Scorpio, it’s ok to be saved. It’s ok to be weak. It’s ok to say hey, actually, I can’t help you right now: I need to help me.

Because guess what? You’re worth it. You’re worth your self-love, you’re worth your praise, you’re worth cherishing your soul. You have survived so many traumas, a multitude of trials that others may never know, but you do. You know them well, and you know just how you came out of them: grand. Simply grand.

밤이 깊을수록 더 빛나는 별빛.

– Jasmine.

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Dear Scorpio,

I’m so proud of you. 2018 wasn’t easy, but here you are, thriving. Despite it all, the setbacks and the hardships, you made it. You’re here, you’re standing, and you’re prospering (even if that little voice in your head is telling you otherwise).

It wasn’t easy, was it? Breaking yourself off from situations that did not serve you, putting yourself and your happiness first. It was tough. But you did it, right? You promised yourself that, on that night bus last year, to this date. As the sites of Myeongdong glided by, you silently promised yourself to be better. Not in the scholastic sense, but in the general sense of self-love. You made a deal with yourself that no matter what, you would feel genuine, pure, organic happiness. Not the fleeting type–the tangible, ever-present variety.

That was the hardest part. Admitting that you needed to put yourself at the forefront, with your fragile little pisces heart, was a struggle in and of itself. Empathy comes naturally, and you know that brings you closer to those who are bound to tear you apart. But you’re stronger than you think, aren’t you? That scorpio sun comes out to play and tells the world “no–you can’t treat me this way”. You did exactly that and I can say with all honesty that you made the biggest step towards loving yourself that you’ve ever done.

I guess you could say the theme of this year was “love yourself”. It’s quite fitting, given your place in life, the artists that inspire you, and the friends that you surround yourself with. You learnt a lot from those 7 boys and their global message. Remember the power of 이사? Remember that day in February, clicking that repeat button and choosing that particular moment to make a 180 shift. God, I’m so happy you did. You’re irrevocably changed and it was that second that did it.

2018 wasn’t all bad though–it was also the year of life-long friends. That’s always the hardest part of breaking things off, isn’t it? The fear of loneliness? But the Universe is so wonderful in that way; just when you think you think you’re alone, they send the right person (or, in this case, people) at the right time. You are blessed with soulmates for friends who, despite the distance apart, will always be there for you. Always remember that, dear Scorpio.

Friends seem to follow you wherever you go, and even making the big decision to better yourself academically (and, you know, your love for BTS) led to even more new friendships back home. You met the perfect person to pursue your degree with, someone who gets you, is empathetic, and can share your struggles along the way. You also found your group, surrounded by a compassionate cancer, a sociable libra, and the taurus you can count on no matter what. Again, I say: you are so blessed.

2018 signalled doors closing, and even more opening. To top it all off, the reunion with the love of your life completed you. It was like the final piece of the puzzle. Everything came together, fell into place, and you are going into this new year whole and stronger than ever.

This coming year, have no fear. If you’ve learnt anything from these past 365 days around the sun, let it be that you are resilient and invincible. You have the capability to take on any lesson the Universe places in your path and you will come out grand, simply grand. Never forget this.

I love you so much, dearest Scorpio, and I know 2019 will be only a more prosperous continuation of 2018. Keep your chin and your standards up, love.

Happy new year,

Jasmine.

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Newest Obsession: Creepers

I think I’m in love.

No, seriously.

I have been seeing these bad boys everywhere, and at first, I hated them. If you don’t know what I am referring to, then just look up T.U.K Creepers in black. Or black and white. I love them both.

But in all honesty, I thought they were hideous at first. They looked gothic and, well, hipster. But then I came to realize that I am probably hipster. Hell, half the young generation could be classified as hipster so, why not love these unique little shoes? My favourite fashion blogger/YouTube guru Jenn Im is obsessed with them as well, and she has definitely probed me to going out and buying a pair. Well, next paycheck, that is.

They just look so versatile and comfortable, but they still retain that edge to them that I love so much. I don’t know. You may think they are hideous, but I think I’ve found my newest obsession. Trust me, once I have them in my possession I will never take them off. I cannot wait.

Until next time,

Jasmine.