It feels a bit nostalgic

Being back home is harder than I had anticipated. Sure, I knew what I was in for, but I don’t think I was capable of fathoming this level of dejection, rejection, and emotion. It’s been hard to say the very least. All the growth and progress I had made being abroad for the past four months seems to have fallen at the wayside, and I’m left feeling alone, abandoned, and utterly confused. But amongst that internal chaos and coming to terms, I’ve started to understand what letting go feels like. And much like my previous revelations on being OK, I feel this needed to be documented, for both my sake and that of others.

I think I need to let you go because it’s obvious you don’t want to stay.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because this push and pull is driving me insane.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let this go because growth is the motto for this new year.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because it’s hurting too much to hang on.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let it go because you’re not holding on either.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because we’re different, now, then we were before.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let them go because times have changed and so have I.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go

for me
for you
for them
for us
for I
and me
and you.

 

Until next time,

Jasmine.

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A little about passion

Home at last.

This past week has been a long string of goodbyes, hellos, and final paychecks. I left residence for the summer, saying my farewells to friends I will reunite with again in the fall, and others who I may not see for quite awhile. In both cases, it was tough. I don’t do well with departures, and this time was no exception. There’s just so many expectations and emotions; I get lost in the crossroads. But I did it and I survived, all 5’1 of me. It was a miracle, to say the least.

My co-op ended on a good note, and I left my cubicle for the last time on an accomplished high. I’ve learned so much about myself, what my goals are, what I like (and, you know, what I absolutely loath), and what I’m passionate about. That last one really became prominent as my term was wrapping up, because I’ve come to realize that work and passion can coexist and complement each other. Shocker, I know.

Passion is such a funny thing, isn’t it? There’s so much power to it. Passion is the driving force behind change and innovation, and it’s astounding to see where it takes people. As someone who revolves my life around my passions, I really love admiring this trait in others. One of my fellow co-workers in residence and close friend is immensely passionate about travel, urban planning, and Hong Kong. It’s inspiring to watch him take those three ingredients and shape a future for himself around them. He’s got such a drive, such a fire inside of him that I truly envy.

I guess it’s friends like this who have opened up my eyes to the possibilities of passion. I never really saw a parallel between my passions and my future career endeavours. They may have crossed paths once in awhile, but they were never running on the same track. The two were never friends, but rather, acquaintances who knew each other only on the surface. You know, that “I’ll make a pun and you’ll laugh and you’ll think I’m funny but you don’t even know where my hometown is” kinda acquaintances.

But this semester, whilst embarking on an adventure through the world of co-op and micromanaging my life, I realized that my passions CAN be at the forefront of my future. I just have to have faith in myself and believe that what I love to do can help me make a career for myself. So I’m going to go out there and write like no one is reading, discussing topics I love, and see where it takes me. You can bet your tuition that it’s going to be challenging, and this blog will more than likely be filled to the brim with endless accounts of me struggling. But I want to write about what I know and love–fashion, music, communication, and Korea. So I’m taking one hell of a chance, and putting my heart where my fingers are (does that even make sense?), to utilize my passions into something beautiful.

I guess you could say I’m inspired.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

It’s about damn time.

If you had asked me a year ago where I would have been today, I probably wouldn’t have known. And this is an odd thing for me. You see, plans are like my life source. I live and breathe checklists and itineraries and googling grad school options till 3 in the morning. I plan. Every single detail of my existence.

But the thing about planning is that life, like many other things in our universe, is completely and utterly unpredictable. Jobs fall through, friends leave, opportunities open up. So no matter how detailed I could have planned my life a year ago, I would still more than likely be someplace else.

And, if I’m honest, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I know I haven’t updated this blog in what feels like a century, and there’s reason behind it. For the past 11 months (WOW. Time flies) I have been meeting new people, creating community within my university, taking on a marketing job, cultivating existing relationships, discovering myself, and, you guessed it, planning. I have been restlessly scheduling and coordinating my next adventure for this summer. And can you guess where I’m headed?

Well, if you know even the slightest detail about me, I’m more than positive you figured it out–Korea. That’s right, I’m headed back to the beautiful peninsula that captivated my soul and stole my existence (did I mention I’m dramatic?). I will be spending my summer in the humid climate of Seoul while I attempt to rebuild what was my ability to speak the Korean language through taking evening classes at Sogang university.

I think my realization about planning and its faults has been a product of this new adventure because for the life of me, I cannot nail this trip down. Whenever one thing goes right, another goes utterly wrong. I go from being elated about an apartment being available, to finding out I can’t apply for the visa I need. And it’s been like this the whole way through, riding the waves of anticipation, happiness, then slight to severe disappointment.

Organizing this trip has been a lesson in growing up, toughening up, and embracing the difficulties. I needed this. For so many years I have tried to dictate and structure my life to meet the standards that I had set, feeling like I had to contort myself into a certain mold and live that way. That’s not a life. That’s a performance. A heavily rehearsed, memorized play in which I am the actor. And yes, if you must know, there is even a musical number (though only 1 because my singing is horrendous).

What I have realized is that this is not living. In order to truly elevate myself and become the individual I aspire to be, I need to embrace change, roll with the punches, and come out on top. I think it’s moments or events like these that really show you who you are, how you work, and what needs to improve.

So I’ve come to love the unexpected and I’ve learnt that I am resilient when my ideas don’t become a reality. It’s okay.

And so I’m looking forward to this new adventure (D-29 days!) with my neck rest, map, and positive outlook in hand. And you can bet your next paycheck that I will be documenting everything on my blog. So stay tuned!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

 

Get ready Vancouver…

What do you think of when you hear the word “Vancouver”? Do images of the sea come to mind, or do you visualize steam rising from tall skyscrapers? Maybe it’s the landscape, with its lush greenery and voluptuous mountains. Perhaps, though, it’s the endless showers spewing from the sky, creating an overcast of greyish hues while you stand under a protective umbrella. Anyway you look at it, Vancouver has its own illustration for each individual.

What about fashion, though? Because fashion, I believe, is an essential part of any Vancouverite’s life. We live on the west coast, and with that comes a more relaxed, laid-back mindset. But this does not mean we are by any means lazy with the way we dress. If anything, it makes our style have a certain edge that cannot be found anywhere else. We are courageous, adventurous, and unafraid to step outside the box. As such, I think it is only fitting that we have a fashion week that is indicative of our unique fashion sense. Sure, you are used to seeing NYF and PFW spreads all over the place, but it is just as crucial to take a look at what is going on at the upcoming F/W 2015 VFW, taking place this upcoming week. In the spirit of this, I wanted to highlight some of the designers that I will be looking out for on the runways, and give my reasons why you should, too.

Alex S. Yu

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With eye-popping hues, and futuristic silhouettes, Alex S. Yu’s designs continuously stand out for me as both eccentric and ridiculously cool. I love the way he plays with the different cuts and sizes of the garments, and how he seamlessly blends textures together. You just get this refreshing feeling from looking at his designs, evoking this sense of contagious energy. The clothes are fun, artistic, and progressive–a mix that is quite hard to find in fashion today. His ability to mix bold with subtle is astounding, and I am eager to see what he produces for this year’s show.

JY Kim

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With clean lines and monochrome colour scheme, JY Kim’s collection is high on my “most anticipated” list. I love how his work is classic but modern, pulling together looks that are creative but timeless. The styles appeal to both men and women, which I think is absolutely fantastic, and would definitely make great pieces for any individual. As an avid wearer of all things black and white, this collection has already scored high points in my books. #monochromeforlife.

Atsushi Nakashima

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Where do I even start? Each collection I have seen from Atsushi Nakashima exudes fantasy, sophistication, and mysticism; it’s addicting. I love everything–from the textures; to the colours; to the prints. Each design he produces just combines so many different elements, and they all tell their own individual story. There is just something so fluid about them. It’s great to see a designer use and blend colours in a way that creates symmetry throughout a collection the way that Nakashima does. That, in addition to unusual fabrics and cut of the materials, really makes this designer stand out in my books.

Needless to say I’m excited. I honestly cannot tell you how great it is that Vancouver is having their own fashion week because, in reality, there is so much local and global talent that needs to be showcased. Plus, by bringing the fashion to the city, it is opening up so many doors for local fashion bloggers and enthusiasts to show off their style. Vancouver is not just yoga pants and Uggs–our streets are filled with progressive, innovated, and cultured fashion that is as unique as the individuals who live here. VFW is a platform to show the world that Vancouver is indeed one of North America’s fashion capitals, and for good reason. Our city inhabits some of the most creative minds this world has to offer, and VFW continues to reiterate this fact with each passing season.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Two more weeks, just two more weeks.

The difference between my life right now and my life before is the Cold War versus a day at Disneyland. Before, things were happening. Life was bright, exciting, and memories flourished. Now, here I am, sitting here, waiting for something, hell, anything to happen. I only have a number of days left in this suburban wasteland where mediocrity and racism prevail, but I feel like these hours, these weeks are dragging. Time is holding back from me, refusing to give me what I so incredibly yearn for: freedom.

The anticipation of arriving home and sleeping in on my own bed has driven me to the point of excessive packing. I am literally living out of my suitcase, unable to tame the mad thoughts of “two more weeks, just two more weeks” from creeping into my every waking hour. It’s hard. I don’t really know how to combat this type of longing. But maybe, somewhere hidden in these next few days of working and planning, I will finally find peace.

(but most likely I’ll just have to wait until I am safely on that air plane, with the destination of Vancouver, BC, flashing on the screen in front of me.)

Until next time,

Jasmine

OOTD: SFU Fashion Week Wrap-Up

So, SFU had a fashion week, hey?

Well, technically it was only three days, but still, it was something. Only able to attend two of the days due to family coming on the Thursday, I was lucky enough to get the honour of covering the events for my school’s student newspaper. Fashion? At SFU? Of course I was all over that. I already started planning my outfit the moment I saw the event posted on Facebook.

Tonight was the fashion show and, in true Jasmine style, I picked my outfit out with care. Wanting to be on trend but still true to myself, I picked up two new pieces and worked them into one of my favourite wardrobe staples for spring: my mint green blazer. Infamous as it is, this beauty was one of the best purchases I have ever made, all thanks to my previous job at Le Chateau. And it worked phenomenally with this look. I needed a pop of colour (don’t get me wrong–I love me some black and white) because hey, it’s the second day of spring and it was gorgeous out. Mixing the mint jacket and the black and white ensemble with gold accessories and black heels completely tied and unified the outfit together. The result was as follows.

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It was so much fun being a part of this process, documenting the work of these local designers and listening to their experiences. As well, I had a blast putting together this outfit and I could not wait to show it off.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Items worn:
Blazer: Le Chateau
Shirt: H&M
Slacks: H&M
Necklace: F21
Rings: F21 & H&M
Bracelets: Aldo & H&M
Heels: Guess
Clutch: H&M

Shoes, shoes, shoes! + OOTD

I can honestly say that I am blessed with where I live. My residence building (there are 8 on our campus) always throws the coolest events, from the Bachelor nights, to this: a photo shoot for the entire building. That’s right, for everyone. At first, I was a tad reluctant to participate. I had just got up, had practically no make-up on, and I had a paper to write. But after helping my friend, Dru (you guys remember the girl who took those amazing photos last post? Yeah, same Dru) do her “artistic expression” shots consisting of a bed, books, and a sign proclaiming “It’s only a Theatre major”, I thought hey–why the hell not?

The posters in our hallway advertising for the shoot said “Bring something awesome!” so I brought the one thing I believed was not only awesome, but a representation of me: my shoe collection. My bounty of shoes here in residence is not as grand as the one back in my parents home in Chilliwack, but the ones I have in my possession right now are my true gems. So I stole away to my room and took up (I live on the 2nd floor and the shoot was on the 4th. And yes, I took the elevator) all the shoes I had stowed away in the various corners of my room. It took me two trips, of course, and an extra set of hands (thanks, Dru!).

The result was the following:

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And here’s some group shots with a few of the girls (and honourary members) of my floor!

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While I was at the shoot, I also got them to take a quick OOTD shot for me, so here it is:

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I’ll leave a list of items worn at the end of this post. In all, it was a fantastic experience, and I can’t help but say I felt like a celebrity with two cameras snapping shots of me at the same time. As much fun as it was, I think I’ll leave the spotlight to Beyonce and Gaga.

Thank you again to Tim and Desi for these amazing photos, and for putting the entire event on. It was such a fun experience. Keep up the good work, guys!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Items worn:
Cardigan: Brandy Melville
Shirt: Korea
Boyfriend Jeans: The Gap
Ankle Boots: Aldo

OOTD: Winter Wonderland

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Winter is here, my friends. I cannot even begin to tell you how long I have waited for this moment, for the first snowfall of the season to occur. And it arrived, the day before my week of hell begins (it’s finals season, people. I hope you understand.) The weather was amazing, I mean there is just something about fresh snow that makes you want to drink hot chocolate and go for a walk to take in the beauty of it all.

My fantastic friend Druscilla offered to shoot a little OOTD for my blog and I was more than thankful for her doing so (it was freezing out and she was only in a leather jacket, God bless her soul).

Again, credit for photos go to Druscilla Henault because she is flawless. Thank you for sacrificing your warmth to take these for me. I owe you a Starbucks or two.

Until next time,

Jasmine

Items worn:

HeadbandL H&M
Button-up: Le Chateau
Sweater: Joe Fresh
Jacket: Joe Fresh
Pants: Topshop
Ankle Boots: Aldo
Necklace: Le Chateau

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Summer in the City

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I spent the day in Vancouver with the best friend (who is behind the lens for these photos), shopping, gallivanting, and doing what I do best: drooling over pieces that I can not afford in Holt Renfrew. It was one of those days where the weather was seemingly unpredictable, so I opted to layer pieces in my outfit. On top, I wore a thrifted sweater over my lightweight, white button-down from Japan. On the bottom, I opted for my simple indigo skinny jeans from H&M. I loved how the forest green and indigo played together, and the white brought a crisp feel to the ensemble. And, really, it was ridiculously comfortable. When walking for hours on end, one tends to aim for optimal comfort.

List of complete items worn here will be posted below! Hope you all are enjoying the weather, where ever you are!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Items worn:

Sunglasses: Ebay
Sweater: Thrifted
Blouse: A gift from my friend in Japan
Pants: H&M
Shoes: Aldo
Necklaces: F21
Bag: Steve Madden

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The Start Of Something New

(No, this is not about the High School Musical song. That was simply a coincidence)

Why is it that every Canada day seems to mark the beginning of something… well, new?

There’s something about the flashing lights, the mystery that is the fireworks, building up that final peak, the huge finale. There’s something about all the wonder that they pose, like they’re marking something significant (well, other than the birth of our home and native land–that I already know) and everything after will never be the same. Every year, I mark the start of my summer, the start of all these collections of adventures, by the light of the sparkles in the sky on the first of July.

But this year, it seems like something is different.

Nina and I sat on the hood of her car, blocks away from the actual event site, watching as they set off one after the other. But as I sat there, dazzled by the display in front of me (which was semi-blocked by a few fir trees), I felt different. I felt like this was it: nothing will be the same again. And, frankly, it won’t be.

With school coming yet again in the fall, and my best friend finally coming to Vancouver for school… I feel like I can finally escape from this town. I won’t be alone; I have Nina, Maria, and Kyujin to be there with me now. I finally feel like my life is… starting. Like this is a new chapter. No, like a whole new book about my life. And oddly, I don’t feel scared. I feel excited, almost anxious for it to happen.

Who knew a national holiday could turn into something so sentimental? I would have never guessed.

I hope all my fellow Canadians on here had an amazing Canada Day today, and for all you non-Canadians… well, I hope you still got something out of today nonetheless.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

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p.s

I will be doing a Summer Essentials post next Monday! As well, next Wednesday I will be a how-to dress for the heat! Stay tuned!