It feels a bit nostalgic

Being back home is harder than I had anticipated. Sure, I knew what I was in for, but I don’t think I was capable of fathoming this level of dejection, rejection, and emotion. It’s been hard to say the very least. All the growth and progress I had made being abroad for the past four months seems to have fallen at the wayside, and I’m left feeling alone, abandoned, and utterly confused. But amongst that internal chaos and coming to terms, I’ve started to understand what letting go feels like. And much like my previous revelations on being OK, I feel this needed to be documented, for both my sake and that of others.

I think I need to let you go because it’s obvious you don’t want to stay.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because this push and pull is driving me insane.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let this go because growth is the motto for this new year.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because it’s hurting too much to hang on.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let it go because you’re not holding on either.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go because we’re different, now, then we were before.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let them go because times have changed and so have I.

And that’s fine.

I think I need to let go

for me
for you
for them
for us
for I
and me
and you.

 

Until next time,

Jasmine.

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It’s about damn time.

If you had asked me a year ago where I would have been today, I probably wouldn’t have known. And this is an odd thing for me. You see, plans are like my life source. I live and breathe checklists and itineraries and googling grad school options till 3 in the morning. I plan. Every single detail of my existence.

But the thing about planning is that life, like many other things in our universe, is completely and utterly unpredictable. Jobs fall through, friends leave, opportunities open up. So no matter how detailed I could have planned my life a year ago, I would still more than likely be someplace else.

And, if I’m honest, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I know I haven’t updated this blog in what feels like a century, and there’s reason behind it. For the past 11 months (WOW. Time flies) I have been meeting new people, creating community within my university, taking on a marketing job, cultivating existing relationships, discovering myself, and, you guessed it, planning. I have been restlessly scheduling and coordinating my next adventure for this summer. And can you guess where I’m headed?

Well, if you know even the slightest detail about me, I’m more than positive you figured it out–Korea. That’s right, I’m headed back to the beautiful peninsula that captivated my soul and stole my existence (did I mention I’m dramatic?). I will be spending my summer in the humid climate of Seoul while I attempt to rebuild what was my ability to speak the Korean language through taking evening classes at Sogang university.

I think my realization about planning and its faults has been a product of this new adventure because for the life of me, I cannot nail this trip down. Whenever one thing goes right, another goes utterly wrong. I go from being elated about an apartment being available, to finding out I can’t apply for the visa I need. And it’s been like this the whole way through, riding the waves of anticipation, happiness, then slight to severe disappointment.

Organizing this trip has been a lesson in growing up, toughening up, and embracing the difficulties. I needed this. For so many years I have tried to dictate and structure my life to meet the standards that I had set, feeling like I had to contort myself into a certain mold and live that way. That’s not a life. That’s a performance. A heavily rehearsed, memorized play in which I am the actor. And yes, if you must know, there is even a musical number (though only 1 because my singing is horrendous).

What I have realized is that this is not living. In order to truly elevate myself and become the individual I aspire to be, I need to embrace change, roll with the punches, and come out on top. I think it’s moments or events like these that really show you who you are, how you work, and what needs to improve.

So I’ve come to love the unexpected and I’ve learnt that I am resilient when my ideas don’t become a reality. It’s okay.

And so I’m looking forward to this new adventure (D-29 days!) with my neck rest, map, and positive outlook in hand. And you can bet your next paycheck that I will be documenting everything on my blog. So stay tuned!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

 

Update: Finals Season

Hello there, world!

Right now, university has literally consumed my entire being. I literally have not been doing anything except studying, eating, working, and sleeping. Ugh. But soon enough, it will be over. I have my last final on Saturday the 27th, and after that I am free to do whatever, whenever. Thank God.

I have a bit of a dilemma right now, though. Nina and I have been contemplating getting Macbooks recently, as we both use HPs currently. I am interested strictly because a) they have iMovie and other great video editing software, b) they are great for formatting articles to be sent in for the newspaper, and c) they are much better laptops than the one I am currently using. Here’s the problem: I need to save money for school next year. I have to decide whether to just purely go on student loans next year, and use the money I earn over the summer to buy a Macbook, or to suck it up and wait until… Lord knows when. I really want to start making videos, like hauls, reviews, and ootds, and be able to not only upload them on a YouTube channel, but also on my blog here. I think it would be a lot easier, and would further my fashion blogger experience. So, needless to say, I’m stuck.

With that being said, I will be doing a review on the clothing I’ve ordered from Romwe, though it will be in text format. My shipment should be arriving soon, so stay tuned for that! 

I’m off to study for Sociology now. Wish me luck!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Update

Hey wordpress,

I felt the need to update you all on what’s been going on lately, and what I have (maybe) planned for the future.

As it would seem, it’s currently end of semester here at Uni, and things have been… well, crazy, to say the least. I have finals starting next week and upcoming projects due, so I have been sadly neglecting the internet.

But I have some exciting news! My two best friends and I are starting a YouTube page hopefully at the end of this month! I am so excited about it because we have been talking about it for quite some time now, but plans were never really set in motion. But now we’ve finally decided we are going to do it and I could not be happier. It will be split into 3 segments, one for each of us, which will include book reviews, health and wellness, and, of course, fashion. As well, we’ll be doing Vlogs of the three of us (or sometimes individual or in a pair), which I think will be the best part. I’ve been thinking about doing my own YouTube channel, but since this opportunity came up, I just couldn’t say no. It’s going to be a blast! Look out for me mentioning it in the future.

I will hopefully be doing an OOTD this week (fingers crossed) and once exams are done, I’ll be doing more fashion posts and trend reports.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

OOTD: Sunshine Queen

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Today was amazing. The sun was shining (finally) and campus was buzzing with activity. I can honestly say that it not only affected my spirits, but my over all aura as well. It was a great day to wear something cute and frilly, like this polka dot black mini dress that I chose. It’s quite a low cut piece, so I added some modesty and edge to it by layering a studded white button-up underneath. This was a mistake, I later found out, as I was basically boiling from the inside out. Thank goodness for my university’s AC, or else I would have toasted completely. I could have easily taken of the cardigan, yes, but I wasn’t a fan of how the outfit looked without it. It gave it a more scholarly feel. To play things up though, I put on some funky sunnies that are actually my best friend Maria’s (sorry, Mia. They were in my car). As well, I opted for my favourite backpack that I’ve had since… well, forever ago.

Sonia, again, you’re amazing for taking these for me. I cannot ever thank you enough. Plus, our lunch on the green was a blast.

Items worn:
Sunglasses: Borrowed
Cardigan: Bluenotes
Dress: Ebay
Belt: Forever 21
Button-up: Thrifted/DIY
Shoes: Forever 21
Backpack: Forever 21

Until next time,

Jasmine.

P.S.
Might be doing a shoe unboxing video tomorrow and a vlog from going into the city to do some shopping! Stay tuned!

OOTD: Work of Art

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Sometimes you need to step back and take in the landscape. Or, in this case, the art. My university is very art based, and these paintings done by the visual arts students set the perfect background for this laid-back, hipster-influenced outfit. I wanted to go for comfortable yet chic, but I still wanted to play with some edge. I put on my all-time favourite knit sweater, and tucked it into my pumpkin high-to-low skirt. I liked the way it was taking the colour of my favourite season, fall, and contrasting it with a crisp, spring white. To add that edge I mentioned earlier, I opted out on my JC Litas–which would have been my first choice for this look–and stuck with my vintage combat boots. The great thing about these babies is that they were locally made here, in Canada!

Finally, for my very basic accessories, I went for my favourite cross necklace. Normally, I flip it to the black side, but I felt my outfit needed a little… something. So I turned to the Leopard print instead.

Thanks to Sonia for working with the lighting on these ones! Oh, and putting up with all the people walking by. That was fun (not).

Items worn:
White knit sweater: F21
High-to-low skirt: Ebay
Combat boots: Thrifted
Necklace: F21 (of course)

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Newest Obsession: Creepers

I think I’m in love.

No, seriously.

I have been seeing these bad boys everywhere, and at first, I hated them. If you don’t know what I am referring to, then just look up T.U.K Creepers in black. Or black and white. I love them both.

But in all honesty, I thought they were hideous at first. They looked gothic and, well, hipster. But then I came to realize that I am probably hipster. Hell, half the young generation could be classified as hipster so, why not love these unique little shoes? My favourite fashion blogger/YouTube guru Jenn Im is obsessed with them as well, and she has definitely probed me to going out and buying a pair. Well, next paycheck, that is.

They just look so versatile and comfortable, but they still retain that edge to them that I love so much. I don’t know. You may think they are hideous, but I think I’ve found my newest obsession. Trust me, once I have them in my possession I will never take them off. I cannot wait.

Until next time,

Jasmine.

OOTD: Kid at Heart

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Bright lights and arcade games set the stage for this look. It was one of those days that I just felt young, and I wanted to express that through my outfit. I put on my oxblood polkadotted skater skirt, along with a lace long-sleeved shirt for a cute and child-like look. On top of all that, I wore my trusty over-sized denim vest, that I DIYed with studs (and my little “I love GD” pin, because I always gotta be reppin’ my fandom. VIP until whenever). I love the way the lace shirt looks with the rough and tough denim. 

Thanks to Sonia for trying to get good lighting in this dark little space! 

Clothing worn:
Denim Vest: Thrifted
GD Pin: Ebay
Studs: Ebay
Lace Shirt: Thrifted
Skater Skirt: Forever 21
Tights: Forever 21
Shoes: Forever 21

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Being a Full Time Student

Mixing fashion, school, and work is overwhelming. Writing for the newspaper, taking on a full course load, plus working at Le Chateau has got me exhausted. Sigh.

I apologize in advance for being so slow on my posts, but as you can see from my first sentence, I have a ton on my plate at this moment. I will try and do a post every Thursday and either Saturday or Sunday. Thursday will more than likely be OOTD, due to the fact that I have my photographer that day (yay Sonia!). The weekend posts might be more trend or written posts. We’ll see. I write the fashion columns for my university’s newspaper, so doing one of those every week and plus a news column occasionally kind of makes me not want to write a full-fledged fashion article on here (and, alas, I cannot re-post what I send in to my editor because that, ladies and gents, is copyright infringement. I think.). But again, we shall see. Maybe I will feel up to it.

Also, I run a Tumblr, though that does not take much effort. But it is a vital part of my life that I am completely and utterly unwilling to give up. Sorry I’m not sorry. 

If you all didn’t know, I have started this blog as a way to get going on my fashion journalism career that I am currently pursuing. Yes, it’s a bit far-fetched, thinking I could run a successful fashion blog, but I am one to dream big. I am still learning so much about fashion, and I find this is the best place to express my growing knowledge and, again, learn more. So, bare with me. 

Until next time,

Jasmine. 

OOTD: Spring is on it’s Way

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The one thing I both love and hate about living on the west coast is the constant showers of rain. It can be peaceful and tranquil at one moment, and then transform into a hideous monster of a storm the next. Today was, unfortunately, one of those days, hence why the shots are taken in two separate places: one in-door and one out. 

Therefore, I wanted to channel the spirit of a west coast spring, while sticking to a trend that I absolutely love for S/W 2013: pastels. This is where my mint, almost sea foam green blazer came into play. It’s comfortable and chic, making it the perfect statement piece to throw on over a neutral outfit.  For extra comfort, I wore my trusty black maxi, and slipped on my Jeffrey Campbell Litas for additional height. My accessories are simple; I wanted to keep it minimal. Personally, I might even take off the necklace I had worn, to keep it even cleaner. 

Please forgive my hideous facial expressions in both shots. It was cold and wet and I am not a model. Probably never will be. I should smile more.

Thanks once again to the amazing Sonia for making me look fantastic and tall in these photos (seriously I look like an amazon compared to my in real life height). She’s such a trooper, standing out in the cold and wet just to get a few good shots! You’re the best.

 

Items worn:
Blazer: Le Chateau
Minnie Mouse Tank: Berlin Market
Maxi Skirt: Ebay
JC Litas: Urban Outfitters
Bag: Steve Madden 

Until next time,

Jasmine.