It’s about damn time.

If you had asked me a year ago where I would have been today, I probably wouldn’t have known. And this is an odd thing for me. You see, plans are like my life source. I live and breathe checklists and itineraries and googling grad school options till 3 in the morning. I plan. Every single detail of my existence.

But the thing about planning is that life, like many other things in our universe, is completely and utterly unpredictable. Jobs fall through, friends leave, opportunities open up. So no matter how detailed I could have planned my life a year ago, I would still more than likely be someplace else.

And, if I’m honest, I wouldn’t have it any other way.

I know I haven’t updated this blog in what feels like a century, and there’s reason behind it. For the past 11 months (WOW. Time flies) I have been meeting new people, creating community within my university, taking on a marketing job, cultivating existing relationships, discovering myself, and, you guessed it, planning. I have been restlessly scheduling and coordinating my next adventure for this summer. And can you guess where I’m headed?

Well, if you know even the slightest detail about me, I’m more than positive you figured it out–Korea. That’s right, I’m headed back to the beautiful peninsula that captivated my soul and stole my existence (did I mention I’m dramatic?). I will be spending my summer in the humid climate of Seoul while I attempt to rebuild what was my ability to speak the Korean language through taking evening classes at Sogang university.

I think my realization about planning and its faults has been a product of this new adventure because for the life of me, I cannot nail this trip down. Whenever one thing goes right, another goes utterly wrong. I go from being elated about an apartment being available, to finding out I can’t apply for the visa I need. And it’s been like this the whole way through, riding the waves of anticipation, happiness, then slight to severe disappointment.

Organizing this trip has been a lesson in growing up, toughening up, and embracing the difficulties. I needed this. For so many years I have tried to dictate and structure my life to meet the standards that I had set, feeling like I had to contort myself into a certain mold and live that way. That’s not a life. That’s a performance. A heavily rehearsed, memorized play in which I am the actor. And yes, if you must know, there is even a musical number (though only 1 because my singing is horrendous).

What I have realized is that this is not living. In order to truly elevate myself and become the individual I aspire to be, I need to embrace change, roll with the punches, and come out on top. I think it’s moments or events like these that really show you who you are, how you work, and what needs to improve.

So I’ve come to love the unexpected and I’ve learnt that I am resilient when my ideas don’t become a reality. It’s okay.

And so I’m looking forward to this new adventure (D-29 days!) with my neck rest, map, and positive outlook in hand. And you can bet your next paycheck that I will be documenting everything on my blog. So stay tuned!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

 

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The Future

Hello, beautiful world

It’s been ages since I’ve updated and you know what? That makes me a little sad. 

I’ve missed writing fashion, scanning blogs for inspiration, and forming an opinion on the latest trends. But I’ve been so attached to my school work and my grads that blogging, for the most part, has taken the back burner. I know, it’s sad. But my future is what’s most important.

With that in mind, I’ve been reflecting a lot on what I want to do with my life. The goal is still to be the editor-in-chief of Vogue–I’m never letting that go–but how I’m getting there has changed. I want to start writing for SFU’s newspaper in a fashion section, but I just don’t know if I’m a fit for it. Maybe I’m just over-thinking this. The point of the matter is that I want to write fashion: it’s in my blood. I just don’t know how to get there. Do I continue running my blog? Should I start doing YouTube? Do I write for the newspaper? Do I do all of the above? It’s so difficult to know. The future is so uncertain, and I wish it wasn’t so. I don’t want to be left in the dark; knowing is what keeps my sane. I just wish I had a magic book that would show me what to do and where to go in order to make my dream a reality. That, or a chance encounter with the editor of some fashion magazine who falls in love with my style and insists I work for her (Carrie Diaries, anyone?). But somehow, I don’t see that happening any time in the near future.

It’s now 12:00 am and I’m still sitting here, in my residence common room, having a quarter life crisis. Well, crisis might be too theatrical a word for it, but you get the picture. Fashion is in my blood and I want to spend the rest of my life studying it, analyzing it, and reveling in it. I cannot see myself continuing on any other way. Journalism in fashion is my calling, I believe, and I just want to push it to its full potential.

 I apologize for making this post a semi-rant/frustrated ramble. I’m glad I could get that off my chest, finally. 

Until next time,

Jasmine.

 

Update: Finals Season

Hello there, world!

Right now, university has literally consumed my entire being. I literally have not been doing anything except studying, eating, working, and sleeping. Ugh. But soon enough, it will be over. I have my last final on Saturday the 27th, and after that I am free to do whatever, whenever. Thank God.

I have a bit of a dilemma right now, though. Nina and I have been contemplating getting Macbooks recently, as we both use HPs currently. I am interested strictly because a) they have iMovie and other great video editing software, b) they are great for formatting articles to be sent in for the newspaper, and c) they are much better laptops than the one I am currently using. Here’s the problem: I need to save money for school next year. I have to decide whether to just purely go on student loans next year, and use the money I earn over the summer to buy a Macbook, or to suck it up and wait until… Lord knows when. I really want to start making videos, like hauls, reviews, and ootds, and be able to not only upload them on a YouTube channel, but also on my blog here. I think it would be a lot easier, and would further my fashion blogger experience. So, needless to say, I’m stuck.

With that being said, I will be doing a review on the clothing I’ve ordered from Romwe, though it will be in text format. My shipment should be arriving soon, so stay tuned for that! 

I’m off to study for Sociology now. Wish me luck!

Until next time,

Jasmine.

Update

Hey wordpress,

I felt the need to update you all on what’s been going on lately, and what I have (maybe) planned for the future.

As it would seem, it’s currently end of semester here at Uni, and things have been… well, crazy, to say the least. I have finals starting next week and upcoming projects due, so I have been sadly neglecting the internet.

But I have some exciting news! My two best friends and I are starting a YouTube page hopefully at the end of this month! I am so excited about it because we have been talking about it for quite some time now, but plans were never really set in motion. But now we’ve finally decided we are going to do it and I could not be happier. It will be split into 3 segments, one for each of us, which will include book reviews, health and wellness, and, of course, fashion. As well, we’ll be doing Vlogs of the three of us (or sometimes individual or in a pair), which I think will be the best part. I’ve been thinking about doing my own YouTube channel, but since this opportunity came up, I just couldn’t say no. It’s going to be a blast! Look out for me mentioning it in the future.

I will hopefully be doing an OOTD this week (fingers crossed) and once exams are done, I’ll be doing more fashion posts and trend reports.

Until next time,

Jasmine.